Here We Go

Well I've been meaning to start blogging for a really long time now, and I finally convinced myself to do it. This isn't really much of a post, more of an introduction really. My very basic situation is this: I grew up in a standard frum, black-hat home and went to a yeshiva elementary and high school (was living hell, more on that later). I know this is sounding like the beginning of some kind of lame shidduch resume, but here's the catch; I'm not religious. At all. However, I'm the only person alive (except the excellent people at Footsteps, and now you) who knows this. No one in my life knows that I'm not religious. My parents sort-of know that I'm less religious than they are, they just haven't the faintest notion of how much less. I'm in a yehiva and go to college at night, which has totally been a cool change of pace so far (I'm talking about college here, that should be very clear in spite of my horrible sentence structure), so I'm finally getting to meet some non-jewish or non-religious people which has been awesome. This blog is where I plan on sharing my experiences with you so that A) I can receive input about what's going on in my life and B) I can hopefully help out other people who are in the same depressing boat. This pretending stuff is really really hard and I've been really depressed for a while now so finally sharing will hopefully help out a bit. Please feel more than free to comment. This blog is going to be like a journal of sorts about my journey which has been pretty crazy up to this point. I will be posting about my background more extensively in my next post. Thanx for reading. Once again please feel free to comment. I'm dying for input here.